suicide bullshit.

[KD#23 dh rider]

WHAT THE F*UCK.

if mods dont think this is appropriate then by all means delete this, i understand fully.

but i really have to vent here.

i was on msn to a person who i hardly know, when i was given a link to a certain page, which gave step by step instructions on how to succesfully slit your wrist in order to commit suicide.

it even encouraged doing it, this is bullshit, what sort of message does these things send when a person goes onto google ect in a depressed state and looks up such things, and instead of getting help messages, beyond blue, reach out, ect ect, they are confronted with F**king sites encouraging them to pursue there urge.



if you dont want to be exposed to such things dont use the link. its just a guide to show exactly what im talking about.

wtf

KD#23

[Plow King]

Edit - I'm just staying out of this all together.

[Wellsey]

That's pretty fucked man. The gene pool needs a serious dose of chlorine.

[mongoosedh]

I'm going to say out of it too.

[lucky13]

big issue that needs attention, but ditch the link bro.

[KD#23 dh rider]

ditch link?

if you guys reckon its better that it goes let me know.

[chu]

thats fucked dude get rid of the link

[Smooth King]

Yeh ditch it.
Makes me sick ...

[cameron_15]

better not show my brother that site.

[Customjimmy]

I think that anybody could easily conceive of something that would be fatal if they're that way inclined. Ellucidating a method of suicide is at best a cry for help, and at worst is a display of abhorrent voyeurism. If the former, then steer them towards the appropriate counselling. If the latter, slap them hard.

[Mojo]

haha why cant we use people like this for something useful. like lab testing to find cures and potions that make our everyday lives better. obviously if they no longer want to live we should be able to help them out

just a thought - i hope those people are organ donors. otherwise im not happy jan

[Breaka]

Curiosity always gets the best of me when watching some pretty rough clips on the net. I read the first few lines before I started feeling ill.

Fuck that, get rid of it.

[KD#23 dh rider]

there u go guys, ditched the link...if anyone wants to see it that badly pm me..

[slip]

There are also sites that tell you how to make a bomb, steal, and show women being abused. I do believe that you may be overreacting a little, especially given that they are only going to harm themselves, of their own choice. A lot of people may not like this, but it's better than blowing some innocent people up with a homemade bomb.

Like it or not, you can access pretty much any information you want on the interwebs.

I dare say you haven't seen a lot of the horrible videos etc on the net. Some instructions on an extremely common, general knowledge act of cutting yourself doesn't really seem all that terrible to me. Hell, it may even save some tortured child from having to live through more abuse. (Devils Advocate)

[Breaka]

I dare say you haven't seen a lot of the horrible videos etc on the net. Some instructions on an extremely common, general knowledge act of cutting yourself doesn't really seem all that terrible to me. Hell, it may even save some tortured child from having to live through more abuse. (Devils Advocate)

That's it. As I said curiosity often gets the better of me when looking at some pretty explicit stuff. The steps and detail were the offputting part, not the fact that it was actually on the internet.

[KD#23 dh rider]

There are also sites that tell you how to make a bomb, steal, and show women being abused. I do believe that you may be overreacting a little, especially given that they are only going to harm themselves, of their own choice. A lot of people may not like this, but it's better than blowing some innocent people up with a homemade bomb.

Like it or not, you can access pretty much any information you want on the interwebs.

I dare say you haven't seen a lot of the horrible videos etc on the net. Some instructions on an extremely common, general knowledge act of cutting yourself doesn't really seem all that terrible to me. Hell, it may even save some tortured child from having to live through more abuse. (Devils Advocate)

yeah mate thats cool and i see where your coming from,i have just spent the week in melb for work and got back tonight and after 8 hours of driving i was pretty exhuatsed and very easliy agitated and when i got it sent to me it was enough to tip me over the edge.

sorry if anyone read more than they wanted in it.

[Ziggy]

there u go guys, ditched the link...if anyone wants to see it that badly pm me..

So your enraged that such things like this would be on the internet but your happy to give out the link for it to anyone whos 'interested'?

It is pathetic and really messed up but you have to expect these things. Its the internet for god sake. Any man and his dog (with opposable thumbs of course) can jump on it and type up things such as this. Theres a site full of Body Modification Extremists or BME (you might remember the phrase BME from a video going around) that post up absolute crap about how to mutilate yourself and photos to prove that they've done it.

[house_of_reign]

After my mum tried to kill her self by slashing her wrists I vowed to myself that I would never ever stoop that low to think that life isn\'t worth living.
Grip summed it up well awhile ago even tho it was controversial I agree that suicide is the losers way out of hard times.

[mtb1611]

^^^ It's not about stooping that low. It's about existing with a fragile state of mind and diminished responsibility that essentially takes away your ability to DECIDE to stoop that low. Instead, you're involuntarily dragged down. As for referring to suicide as a loser's way ou well sure, loss is a huge part of it, but do people in such a condition actually choose to lose or do they succumb to circumstances beyond their control? Remember, the mind can get sick, just as the rest of the body can. I hope your mum got through her troubles and is doing well.

[mtb1611]

Hell, it may even save some tortured child from having to live through more abuse. (Devils Advocate)

Are you fucking serious? So you're advocating the publicising of suicide methods to assist abused children to commit suicide? Devil's Advocate bailout or not, that one of the most ridiculous things I've ever heard.

[TheBofh]

Like it or not, you can access pretty much any information you want on the interwebs.

I dare say you haven't seen a lot of the horrible videos etc on the net. Some instructions on an extremely common, general knowledge act of cutting yourself doesn't really seem all that terrible to me.
Do a search for self euthanasia or self deliverance in Google and you will find Doctors' instructions on how to end your life painlessly. You can't censor the internet; you can find anything from bomb making to meth lab instructions without too much trouble.

^^^ It's not about stooping that low. It's about existing with a fragile state of mind and diminished responsibility that essentially takes away your ability to DECIDE to stoop that low. Instead, you're involuntarily dragged down. As for referring to suicide as a loser's way ou well sure, loss is a huge part of it, but do people in such a condition actually choose to lose or do they succumb to circumstances beyond their control? Remember, the mind can get sick, just as the rest of the body can. I hope your mum got through her troubles and is doing well.I view suicide as a symptom of severe depression; people try and rationalise the actions of the severely depressed but they are being controlled by a chemical imbalance in the brain & it is this diminished responsibility that causes their actions, not really a voluntary decision at all. This is different from the impulsive suicide, (most teenage suicide survivors admit spending less than 10 minutes considering their actions), who may be influenced to act on finding a web page like this.

[slip]

Are you fucking serious? So you're advocating the publicising of suicide methods to assist abused children to commit suicide? Devil's Advocate bailout or not, that one of the most ridiculous things I've ever heard.

I'm not going to continue down this path, as it is terribly sensitive and won't end well. I did not advocate it, just proposed a different perspective after the very one sided responses before mine.

[Bowlo]

Can Someone gimme the link? I wanna see what all the fuss is about...

[do-a-flip]

i really hate people who commit suicide. i think its a waste of life but i cant say anything as i have not been in depression. but what really ticks me is when they bloody jump in front of a train or car to die. if you gunna freakin do it, don't do it were it involves other people aswell. my uncles father was a train driver when somebody jumped infront of the train. he never drove one again. fuks people up.

[mtb1611]

I'm not going to continue down this path, as it is terribly sensitive and won't end well. I did not advocate it, just proposed a different perspective after the very one sided responses before mine.

Okay no worries bud, I do actually respect a lot of the things you have to say and agree with your perspective regarding a discontinuation.

[mtb1611]

I view suicide as a symptom of severe depression; people try and rationalise the actions of the severely depressed but they are being controlled by a chemical imbalance in the brain & it is this diminished responsibility that causes their actions, not really a voluntary decision at all. This is different from the impulsive suicide, (most teenage suicide survivors admit spending less than 10 minutes considering their actions), who may be influenced to act on finding a web page like this.

Couldn't agree more (re the highlighted section) and it's very difficult for someone in a rational frame of mind to comprehend just how real depression is, to the depressed.

Interesting analogy re teenage suicide, given that data may only be gleaned from the "unsuccessful", thus raising a question as to how many actually WANTED to die, as opposed to performing an attention-seeking stunt/cry for help.

[{ScarFace}]

Alright, my dad has depression, his dad did and so did his dad. I have been through depression a few times.
Although my depression phases start randomly and only last about a week or two, I know how bad it can get to go through it.

It basically feels like you have just been on a long ride, you don't have any energy, you get angry easily, and you feel like shit. It's always in the back of your mind even when you are seem to be having fun.

I have never tried to kill myself, and I hate people who do it without trying to get help or consider the impacts on there family.

This website is complete shit, I can kind of understand why a website will provide a method to stop people from screwing up and seriously handicapping themselves, but the lack of help or discouragement of the action is so stupid it makes me wonder why there aren't certain regulations to stop websites post shit like this.

thats my 2 cents

[{ScarFace}]

It's a touchy subject

But It's always fun to have a laugh

http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=manly_suicide

All those easily offended, um.... sorry.

[Elbo]

One of my mates committed suicide in November last year. All my friends and I were completely shocked by it, the only reason we can think that he did it was because his girlfriend of 4 years broke up with him. The bastard rang one of my mates at 4:00 am before he did it saying how he was a good mate and all this. His dad is a Vietnam Vet and has taken it worse than anyone. When I found out what had happened I was almost sick on the spot. The amount of devastation it caused to his family and friends was horrendous. If someone dies of old age, there is at least some closure in that, but with suicide picture 400 people packed into a church, most bawling, not knowing why this happened, and all thinking what they could've done to prevent it. It has a massive chain reaction attached to it.. I'm really surprised his girlfriend has stayed strong and not taken her own life.
The worst thing is knowing that I won't see him ever again. I also have like a 'glazed' feeling about his suicide. I think he was weak and an absolute bastard to do it, but then I'm not sure what to think. All I know is I have to look out for all my friends now and give them a shoulder to lean on if need be.

So, in short, I hope this stuff is seriously wiped from the internet. Some people have no idea about how harmful and destructive they can be. I mean even 1 word spoken can tip someone over the edge, let alone a frickin' instruction manual. Makes me sick to the gut.

[Breaka]

Think about how you would feel if someone had committed suicide, you've gone through their internet history and you've found that link.

[No Licence]

My auntie commited suicide when i was young, alot todo with my cousin drowned in there pool when he was only 4 and her peice of shit husband abused her cheated on her made her life hell and i hate to think how bad she felt that death was the only way out. You cannot generalise it and say its the losers way out. Sure you can be angry with them. And more recently my mate from work, a quiet dude nice as he had a blew with his missus she told him that she wished he was dead. He left and never came back. It hurts like hell because you sit an think of everything that you ould of done maybe to stop it, that it was a pointless loss. One of my best friends lost her finacee to lukeamia a couple of years ago, that was the first prson i knew my age to die. When you lose someone that way makes it hard to comprehend people commiting suicide when you watch a top bloke fight for his life.

[JaRedy]

http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=five_shitty_movies that maddox guy is funny as.

and on topic... I have a mate who's mate jumped in front of a train late last year. it messed my mate up too. Commit sucide and your a bloody idiot.

[mtb1611]

http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=five_shitty_movies that maddox guy is funny as.

and on topic... I have a mate who's mate jumped in front of a train late last year. it messed my mate up too. Commit sucide and your a bloody idiot.

FFS mate, read the whole thread and wake up to yourself.

[Arete]

So your enraged that such things like this would be on the internet but your happy to give out the link for it to anyone whos 'interested'?

It is pathetic and really messed up but you have to expect these things. Its the internet for god sake. Any man and his dog (with opposable thumbs of course) can jump on it and type up things such as this. Theres a site full of Body Modification Extremists or BME (you might remember the phrase BME from a video going around) that post up absolute crap about how to mutilate yourself and photos to prove that they've done it.

Hi, I'd be one of those people. Quite frankly, stick it up your arse, sideways, wrapped in a sheet of sandpaper.

Point 1) Body Modification is an age old practice, arguably the oldest form of art is tattoo. 1 in 8 people is tattooed. Are 1 in 8 people "absloute crap"? I see my own modification as an exporation of self. Just because the changes aren't for the mainstream conception of beauty (people like yourself don't seem to have the same issues with cosmetic surgery, a far more extreme, risky and expensive to the public when it doesn't go right - way of modifying yourself) doesn't make them mutilation. Ever heard of self reclaimation through modification for trauma victims? didn't think so.

Point 2) Body Modification EZINE (BME) does not post, or condone the publication of instructions for self modification.

Point 3) The membership of BME is FAR greater than that of Farkin, and it's been online for 13 years. You're not dealing with some small group of extremists, you're dealing with a massive group of people of all sorts of levels of modification from standard ear piercings through to heavy mods. Educate yourself before launching an attack on a group you obviously know nothing about.

Once again, stick it up your arse, and have a nice day.

[floody]

That's pretty fucked man. The gene pool needs a serious dose of chlorine.

Sounds like that was the intention of the page?

[Ziggy]

Hi, I'd be one of those people. Quite frankly, stick it up your arse, sideways, wrapped in a sheet of sandpaper.

Point 1) Body Modification is an age old practice, arguably the oldest form of art is tattoo. 1 in 8 people is tattooed. Are 1 in 8 people "absloute crap"? I see my own modification as an exporation of self. Just because the changes aren't for the mainstream conception of beauty (people like yourself don't seem to have the same issues with cosmetic surgery, a far more extreme, risky and expensive to the public when it doesn't go right - way of modifying yourself) doesn't make them mutilation. Ever heard of self reclaimation through modification for trauma victims? didn't think so.

Point 2) Body Modification EZINE (BME) does not post, or condone the publication of instructions for self modification.

Point 3) The membership of BME is FAR greater than that of Farkin, and it's been online for 13 years. You're not dealing with some small group of extremists, you're dealing with a massive group of people of all sorts of levels of modification from standard ear piercings through to heavy mods. Educate yourself before launching an attack on a group you obviously know nothing about.

Once again, stick it up your arse, and have a nice day.

Your right, i shouldn't be throwing my misinformed opinions around about BME as i know little to nothing about it but after watching that BME pain olympics video i was pretty disgusted and in absolute shock someone would do such things to themselves. Guess i thought BME was just about cutting off parts of your body for the hell of it.

[Arete]

Sorry for going off the deep end at you. I just dislike the stereotyping that goes along with altering one's body, especially when pics of myself going through an amazing, perspective altering experience end up in some guy's "Check thez freekz out mang" posts on the net.

Some of the more extreme stuff, self amputation and so forth is pretty confronting. That however is not a representation of every single person with a modification or who has done a suspension.

Sorry again.

Back on topic, why not just legalise Nembutol and allow people who want to end their lives do it painessly instead of forcing them to resort to painful, slow and messy demises?

[JoshP]

same thing happened to me too, a guy on msn that i dont even know sent me a link to this crap i looked what it was and went straight out. its just stupid and should be taken off the internet!

[KD#23 dh rider]

[url] Commit sucide and your a bloody idiot.

mate shut the fuck up.

unless you have been down the road of depression you have NO idea of what its like, the state of mind, and how you reach a point where your mind isnt thinking of others, just how to end it. i have been at that stage, and i attempted suicide by overdosing, ended up being found unconcious and had to get my stomach pumped.

do not tell people in depression that they are looking for attention, becuase that will push them even more.

[Wellsey]

Sounds like that was the intention of the page?

Hmm, didn't think of it that way, nice one floody.

[Vicious_Fishes]

i think of suicide as a selfish act.

seriously, think of the kind of effects that it can have on other people. you do that to them because you can't get a spine and deal with it.

this especially applys to the poor 15yo's that just got jumped and their life sucks. think about your parents, find some videos on youtube of parents who have lost their kids you selfish ***'s.

same rule applys to parents or marital partners or well, anyone.

on topic: it's only one of many. the help is there if people are willing. the world helps those who help themselves - that's what we have sites like beyond blue for.

[mtb1611]

You fail to see the point, just as many others in this thread have. You are making these assertions and forming these opinions while in a rational state of mind; those who are suicidal more often than not are NOT in a rational state of mind, for many and varied reasons (mental health issues, substance abuse, both, etc). Generally their self-esteem is so low and their sense of worth so non-existant that they actually feel that ridding the world of themselves will be doing their family and friends a favour. They view themselves as a burden to others and essentially view their own demise as being in everyone's best interests.

As to help being available to those who want it, this is quite often a matter of the person having enough concerned and determined friends/relos who are well-informed enough to know of available support frameworks, and who have the resolve to ensure that the person accesses this support. Remember though, suicidal people don't always give any signs of what's about to come.....

[KD#23 dh rider]

You fail to see the point, just as many others in this thread have. You are making these assertions and forming these opinions while in a rational state of mind; those who are suicidal more often than not are NOT in a rational state of mind, for many and varied reasons (mental health issues, substance abuse, both, etc). Generally their self-esteem is so low and their sense of worth so non-existant that they actually feel that ridding the world of themselves will be doing their family and friends a favour. They view themselves as a burden to others and essentially view their own demise as being in everyone's best interests.

As to help being available to those who want it, this is quite often a matter of the person having enough concerned and determined friends/relos who are well-informed enough to know of available support frameworks, and who have the resolve to ensure that the person accesses this support. Remember though, suicidal people don't always give any signs of what's about to come.....



this is exactly 100% true. thankyou.

everyone is saying that its selfish, but when you are about to commit, your not thinkiung off others becuase your mind doesnt care, you are past that stage, you just want it gone, try being in it befor you make assumptions.

[pryaz-norco rider]

i think of suicide as a selfish act.

seriously, think of the kind of effects that it can have on other people. you do that to them because you can't get a spine and deal with it.

this especially applys to the poor 15yo's that just got jumped and their life sucks. think about your parents, find some videos on youtube of parents who have lost their kids you selfish ***'s.

same rule applys to parents or marital partners or well, anyone.


Same as suicide bombs. If It's not bad enough taking your own life, do you have to take other innocent peoples lives aswell?

[PINT of Stella, mate!]

Think about how you would feel if someone had committed suicide, you've gone through their internet history and you've found that link.

Actually, the one main reason as to why I've not tried suicide (hell, everyone gets curious) is because my mum might check out my internet history!

;)

[Vicious_Fishes]

You fail to see the point, just as many others in this thread have. You are making these assertions and forming these opinions while in a rational state of mind; those who are suicidal more often than not are NOT in a rational state of mind, for many and varied reasons (mental health issues, substance abuse, both, etc). Generally their self-esteem is so low and their sense of worth so non-existant that they actually feel that ridding the world of themselves will be doing their family and friends a favour. They view themselves as a burden to others and essentially view their own demise as being in everyone's best interests.

As to help being available to those who want it, this is quite often a matter of the person having enough concerned and determined friends/relos who are well-informed enough to know of available support frameworks, and who have the resolve to ensure that the person accesses this support. Remember though, suicidal people don't always give any signs of what's about to come.....


fair point, my only counter is that have you (the suicidal person) ever seen a video or even heard of where a parent is glad their child is dead, in any circumstances ?

[mtb1611]

fair point, my only counter is that have you (the suicidal person) ever seen a video or even heard of where a parent is glad their child is dead, in any circumstances ?

No mate not at all, nor do I ever hope to. Of course the parents wouldn't actually believe that but trying to convince the suicidal person that this is the case is very frustrating I can assure you!

[Vicious_Fishes]

No mate not at all, nor do I ever hope to. Of course the parents wouldn't actually believe that but trying to convince the suicidal person that this is the case is very frustrating I can assure you!

yeah i didnt phrase that properly, i was saying it was something for the suicidal person that thinks killing themselves is doing everyone a favour to consider:o

i'm actually bloody depressed/pissed off at the moment myself, the female species can do that :(

[NeeBean]

I am not impressed by EMOS

[KD#23 dh rider]

I am not impressed by EMOS

mate im pretty sure you have got emos and people with depression mixed up. this is a suicidal/depression thread, not emo thread.

[Plow King]

I am not impressed by EMOS

Wrong thread buddy.

http://forums.farkin.net/showthread.php?t=121426

[Customjimmy]

Fucking suicide eh? Pretty red and raw topic for us at the moment. A friend of ours topped herself a few days ago and they found her on Monday. She and her partner stayed at our place over the easter break, we had an absolute ball and then 2 days later she put a gun to her head. She didn't seem upset, or depressed and gave no clue as to what was going through her mind. Turns out she stopped taking her anti-depressant meds, had a bad turn and made a terrible decision based on her fucked-up brain chemistry at the time.

She, nor anybody else needed instructions on how to do it, it's not rocket science. It's not a decision based on any rational thought - if you're thinking clearly, you tend not to kill yourself.

Do me a favour, tell those close to you how much you care about them and look after each other. I know I've been hugging my wife and kids pretty tight the last few days. You never know when a random act of kindness might just make a big difference. I'm pretty sad, angry and bitter but there's nothing but pity for her and those who cared about her. It's a very, very fucked up thing.

[leitch]

Customjimmy - shit, mate. That's rough. I hope you and your family and friends (the girl's partner especially) are doing O.K. Obviously it's not all rosy, but I hope you're all dealing with it alright and are all supporting each other through the tough times. My deepest condolences, I can only imagine how you must be feeling. Keep your family and friends close, mate.

[.:Easily:.]

recently a teacher at school had a very deep convo with the class about this. One of his mates was an apparant genius, great at maths, aspired to be a teacher one day but was born deaf and had a speech inpediment, keep in mind this was years ago and anti-discrimination laws werent as they were today, so he couldnt find any employment and this is like a year or two looking for employment. So my teacher catches up with him one day as long time mates do, had a few drinks talked about life etc. That night he just gave in and chose to take his own life.

even the most inteligent people take this decision for one reason or another, just shows how jaded the mind can get.

[Haro_MTB]

I am not impressed by EMOS

And no-one is impressed by you trying to be all high and mighty. This is a serious thread about serious issues, grow the f**k up.

[spaz]

When I die, fuck it I wanna go to hell
Cause I'm a piece of shit, it ain't hard to fuckin' tell
It don't make sense, goin' to heaven wit the goodie-goodies
Dressed in white, I like black Tims and black hoodies
God will probably have me on some real strict shit
No sleepin' all day, no gettin my dick licked
Hangin' with the goodie-goodies loungin' in paradise
Fuck that shit, I wanna tote guns and shoot dice
All my life I been considered as the worst
Lyin' to my mother, even stealin' out her purse
Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion
I know my mother wished she got a fuckin' abortion
She don't even love me like she did when I was younger
Suckin' on her chest just to stop my fuckin' hunger
I wonder if I died, would tears come to her eyes?
Forgive me for my disrespect, forgive me for my lies
My babies' mothers 8 months, her little sister's 2
Who's to blame for both of them (naw nigga, not you)
I swear to God I just want to slit my wrists and end this bullshit
Throw the Magnum to my head, threaten to pull shit
And squeeze, until the bed's, completely red
I'm glad I'm dead, a worthless fuckin' buddah head
The stress is buildin' up, I can't,
I can't believe suicide's on my fuckin' mind
I want to leave, I swear to God I feel like death is fuckin' callin' me
Naw you wouldn't understand (nigga, talk to me please)
You see its kinda like the crack did to Pookie, in New Jack
Except when I cross over, there ain't no comin' back
Should I die on the train track, like Remo in Beatstreet
People at the funeral frontin' like they miss me
My baby momma kissed me but she glad I'm gone
She knew me and her sista had somethin' goin' on
I reach my peak, I can't speak,
call my nigga Chic, tell him that my will is weak.
I'm sick of niggas lyin', I'm sick of bitches hawkin',
matter of fact, I'm sick of talkin'.
[BANG]

[Customjimmy]

When I die, fuck it I wanna go to hell
Cause I'm a piece of shit, it ain't hard to fuckin' tell
It don't make sense, goin'
[BANG]

Shakespeare - 1
Notorious B.I.G. - 0

What was the fucking point of that?

[rayza]

to every little fuck in this threat that said they 'hate' people who commit or attempt suicide, unless you've seen it, been affected by it, or educated in it, fuck off and go learn some more about life.
suicide makes me angry, fucking livid even, but to judge the people who make those choices as selfish, when you know nothing about them, makes me hate you. depression is not just a feeling, it can be uncontrollable.
I have never suffered from depression, but occasionally my girlfriend does. I never understood it before, but i've been going to counselling with her and finding out more and more. getting back to suicide, my dad took his life when i was 7 years old. i'm now almost 27. unless you've lived with or been affected by it, keep you useless comments silenced.

[downhillboy]

When I die, fuck it I wanna go to hell
Cause I'm a piece of shit, it ain't hard to fuckin' tell
It don't make sense, goin' to heaven wit the goodie-goodies
Dressed in white, I like black Tims and black hoodies
God will probably have me on some real strict shit
No sleepin' all day, no gettin my dick licked
Hangin' with the goodie-goodies loungin' in paradise
Fuck that shit, I wanna tote guns and shoot dice
All my life I been considered as the worst
Lyin' to my mother, even stealin' out her purse
Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion
I know my mother wished she got a fuckin' abortion
She don't even love me like she did when I was younger
Suckin' on her chest just to stop my fuckin' hunger
I wonder if I died, would tears come to her eyes?
Forgive me for my disrespect, forgive me for my lies
My babies' mothers 8 months, her little sister's 2
Who's to blame for both of them (naw nigga, not you)
I swear to God I just want to slit my wrists and end this bullshit
Throw the Magnum to my head, threaten to pull shit
And squeeze, until the bed's, completely red
I'm glad I'm dead, a worthless fuckin' buddah head
The stress is buildin' up, I can't,
I can't believe suicide's on my fuckin' mind
I want to leave, I swear to God I feel like death is fuckin' callin' me
Naw you wouldn't understand (nigga, talk to me please)
You see its kinda like the crack did to Pookie, in New Jack
Except when I cross over, there ain't no comin' back
Should I die on the train track, like Remo in Beatstreet
People at the funeral frontin' like they miss me
My baby momma kissed me but she glad I'm gone
She knew me and her sista had somethin' goin' on
I reach my peak, I can't speak,
call my nigga Chic, tell him that my will is weak.
I'm sick of niggas lyin', I'm sick of bitches hawkin',
matter of fact, I'm sick of talkin'.
[BANG]


okay that was strange

[mtb1611]

to every little fuck in this threat that said they 'hate' people who commit or attempt suicide, unless you've seen it, been affected by it, or educated in it, fuck off and go learn some more about life.
suicide makes me angry, fucking livid even, but to judge the people who make those choices as selfish, when you know nothing about them, makes me hate you. depression is not just a feeling, it can be uncontrollable.
I have never suffered from depression, but occasionally my girlfriend does. I never understood it before, but i've been going to counselling with her and finding out more and more. getting back to suicide, my dad took his life when i was 7 years old. i'm now almost 27. unless you've lived with or been affected by it, keep you useless comments silenced.

Expletive-laden and anger-laced as your statement may be, you're on the money. I hope your girlfriend gets through it, mucho kudos to you for not being a typical male and running.

[Haro_MTB]

Expletive-laden and anger-laced as your statement may be, you're on the money. I hope your girlfriend gets through it, mucho kudos to you for not being a typical male and running.

Yeah agreed, at least you've stuck around, and even gone with her to the councilling! Good on ya mate, good on ya :)

[lucky13]

http://forums.farkin.net/showthread.php?t=118075&highlight=pokies

check this thread for thoughts on suicides affect on loved ones.